sooooo...woo...

So the same stuff has been going on lately as the last post...

I'll be driving the street sweeper this spring for clean up, I actually don't really want too but what the hell. It's another machine I'll learn how to operate. I've been talking alot about concrete this summer and how jay expects me to go on mudjacking... I said I would consider it...that doesn't mean yes. Poor guy is most likely going to get a shock when I choose landscaping or something else. but who knows. I know if I choose something that he isn't the foreman for, He and some others won't look at me the same anymore, It shouldn't be like that... but... I've come to terms with it. It's my choice, and I shouldn't feel obligated to work in a section that I don't really want too, just because I'm worried about disappointing jay. He's not my dad.

I went to J-bobs this weekend for a visit, it was nice. We just talked about what was new and work and shit. I think if there was anybody I'd like to hang out with more from the band, It's him.

He and I talked about where the band is going and how we need to start jamming again, it was pretty straight forward. Just jam casually, have a good time. And then John came to visit and started talking about treating it like a business and blahblahblahbullshit. Then he said that adam had issues with us and blahblahblahbullshit. Then he said that he had some too, and sometimes he questioned how seriously Jono and I took the band.

I sat there quietly and replied with a simple "I don't" ... lol... this bothered him. I hadn't told him why I don't.

here are a few reasons:
-Nobody else obviously does
-Any shows we've played, we'd finish our set and they would all fuck off and get high while Jono and I stuck around and met people.
-Showing up retardedly late for jams, Jono and I wouldn't say anything and then we'd show up 30 minutes late to some pissed off people. The same people who were late on many other occasions.
-cancelling for dumb reasons.
-Not jamming for weeks at a time, and then getting random calls about jamming in a couple hours... Not going to work... I've said it 1000 fuckin' times, And all I got was whining about saying no and how my committment was being questioned. So I just ignored the phone calls, and of course... that became an issue too.
and the list goes on...

The simple fact is this, We are all too busy, We are all too tired, and we are all too old to take this band thing seriously. But it is a part of what we do. So I'm down with jamming casually, getting some decent recordings. Maybe playing a show here and there, and sending a demo off and hoping to get a call back. But I don't take it seriously anymore, and I don't think I ever will again.

We'll see what happens.